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Nico woke to the sound of the radiator knocking in the wall like it had an opinion about mornings.

For a few seconds he stayed still, eyes closed, listening to the apartment arrange itself around the day. Pipes settling. A door closing somewhere lower in the building. The faint hum of traffic outside, muted by old windows and thin curtains. The quiet, ordinary sounds of other people continuing with lives that probably involved less overthinking before coffee.

He opened his eyes and stared at the ceiling.

His room looked the same as it had the night before. Narrow bed. Stacks of books he kept meaning to shelve properly. One sock on the floor near the dresser that had somehow escaped the laundry pile and now looked accusatory in the pale wash of morning light. Nothing dramatic had happened to the space overnight. No visible shift. No evidence.

And yet the apartment did not feel the same.

That was becoming a pattern.

He lay there for another minute, one arm folded under his head, replaying the end of the night in fragments he had not meant to keep so clearly.

Jules in his doorway.

Bare feet against the wood floor.

I asked if you’d eaten because I wanted to take care of you a little.

He closed his eyes briefly.

There had been no taking that sentence back once it existed. No administrative phrasing available afterward. No clever restructuring that made it sound smaller than it was. He had said it plainly, and Jules had looked at him like the truth had landed somewhere they were not sure they were ready to touch with bare hands.

He turned onto his side and reached for his phone on the nightstand.

No new messages.

That should have been fine. It was early. They lived ten feet apart. There was no reason for Jules to text him from inside the apartment. The fact that some small, embarrassing part of him had checked anyway was something he intended to file under temporary personal weakness and never revisit.

He set the phone back down and sat up.

The floor was cold under his feet. The air in the room still held the faint stale warmth of sleep, but beyond the cracked-open bedroom door the apartment felt cooler, quieter, as if morning had not fully decided what tone it wanted from them yet.

He pulled on a T-shirt, ran a hand once through his hair, and stepped into the hallway.

The bathroom door was open. The light over the stove was off. The living room sat in that washed-out early brightness that made the couch look softer and the books on the floor look more intentional than they were. For one second he thought Jules might still be asleep.

Then he heard the sound of a cabinet closing in the kitchen.

He stopped in the hallway, absurdly aware of himself all at once.

There were too many possible versions of this morning.

A careful one. An easy one. A formal one. A worse one, where both of them acted so normal it became obvious how much work normal was taking.

He hated that he could already feel himself trying to prepare for all of them at once.

Another sound from the kitchen. A spoon against ceramic.

He exhaled slowly and kept walking.

Jules was standing at the counter in a soft gray shirt and dark sleep pants, hair still unbrushed, one hand wrapped around a mug while the other stirred yogurt in a bowl with unnecessary concentration. They looked up when he entered, and for half a second neither of them said anything.

Then Jules’s mouth curved slightly.

“Good,” they said. “You’re awake.”

He frowned. “That sounds ominous.”

“Only lightly.” Jules nodded toward the coffee maker. “I started a pot and then realized if you slept through it, I’d have to either let it burn or admit I know how you take it now.”

He looked at the coffee maker, then back at them. “That seems like a survivable moral problem.”

“You’d think.”

The reply was easy enough that some of the tension in his shoulders loosened before he could stop it.

He crossed to the cabinet for a mug. “Morning.”

“Morning,” Jules said again, softer this time.

He could feel their eyes on him for a second as he reached for the mug, and then not on him as they looked away, which was somehow more noticeable.

The coffee finished dripping with a final little hiss.

Jules stepped toward it first, then paused and looked at him. “Do you want me to?”

The question was simple. Small. Ordinary enough on the surface.

Still it landed with more care than it should have needed.

He held out the mug. “Yeah.”

Jules poured. Dark coffee. Just enough room left at the top without asking. Exactly enough room, in fact.

He watched it happen and said nothing.

Jules set the carafe back on the burner. “You are looking at that like it’s a legal document.”

“I’m looking at coffee.”

“You are absolutely not.”

He took a sip instead of answering. It was still too hot. He let the heat settle on his tongue anyway.

The kitchen was quiet for a minute. Not strained. Just alert. Like both of them were aware of the shape of the room and the distance between them inside it.

Jules set the spoon down in the bowl. “How bad is the morning-after overanalysis?”

He leaned one shoulder against the opposite counter. “That depends.”

“On.”

“Whether I’m answering honestly or in a way that makes me sound emotionally well-adjusted.”

Jules smiled into the rim of the mug. “Interesting distinction.”

“It’s important.”

“It’s never actually important when you say it.”

He almost smiled.

That, too, felt important in some irritating way. The fact that Jules could still do that. The fact that ease had not disappeared entirely just because the truth had arrived awkwardly and late the night before.

He looked toward the window over the sink, where the light had turned the glass pale. “I wasn’t going to make this weird this morning.”

Jules lifted one brow. “That sounds like the opening line to someone making this weird this morning.”

“I’m serious.”

“I know.” Jules rested a hip against the counter. “That’s why I’m concerned.”

He let out a quiet breath that might have become a laugh if he’d let it.

Jules watched him for a second longer, then said, more gently, “You don’t have to clean up last night before eight a.m., Nico.”

He looked back at them.

There it was.

Not accusation. Not pressure. Just the exact thing he had been trying to do, named in a sentence simple enough to leave no room for pretending otherwise.

He looked down at the coffee in his hand. “I wasn’t trying to clean it up.”

“A little.”

“Maybe a little.”

Jules nodded once like that was enough honesty to work with.

That should have ended it. But the apartment had a way of making silences feel inhabited, and this one stretched just long enough for him to notice that Jules still looked tired. Not upset. Not closed off. Just tired around the edges in a way that made him think of the hallway light under his own door last night, and the fact that they had come to him anyway.

He said, before he could overthink it, “Did you sleep.”

Jules blinked once. “That is either a very normal question or a very dangerous one.”

“Which one.”

They considered him, then took another sip of coffee. “Mostly normal.”

“Mostly?”

“I slept.” Jules glanced toward the bowl on the counter. “Not perfectly. But that’s not a tragedy. You look like you barely slept at all.”

He looked away. “That was not the question.”

“No. It was the answer.”

A folded sheet of paper slid suddenly under the apartment door with a dry, papery scrape against the wood.

Both of them looked toward the sound at the same time.

The moment broke cleanly.

Jules pushed off the counter first. “If that’s another rent increase notice, I’m choosing violence.”

“You say that every time.”

“And one day I’ll mean it.”

They crossed the living room barefoot and bent to pick up the envelope from the floor. Nico stayed where he was for a second, mug in hand, watching the morning rearrange itself again around something ordinary and outside them.

Jules turned the envelope over and frowned.

“That,” they said, “does not look encouraging.”

He set the mug down and walked out of the kitchen. “Landlord?”

Jules held it up. “Unfortunately.”

They tore it open there by the door, pulled out a single stapled packet, and scanned the first page.

Nico saw the exact second they understood what it was.

Their expression did not change much. Jules was too good at subtlety for that. But something in their face quieted. Their shoulders settling in a new, more deliberate line.

“What.”

Jules looked up.

“Lease renewal.”

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